We are called for specific purpose. We are called to serve God. He has given you a name and an identity. What are you answering to? It seems like a silly question but many of us go through life distracted by so many things. Are you answering your call or are you answering to something else?
Are the things of this world holding your attention? Are you answering to your peers? Job? What others think of you? In the grand scheme of things none of this stuff really matters. However, we as humans want everyone to like us and we want everyone to enjoy being around us. We want our lives to be perfect and without blemish and suffering. That’s impossible when we are not perfect ourselves. We are human and make mistakes. So often we dwell on the mistake so long we’ve become the thing that happened. You are not your mistake you are not called to dwell in your failings.
You are not supposed to answer to your past. God has forgiven it. It is finished. Let it go and move forward in the power that God has giveb you. You are not your past. You can’t change it, you can’t relive it, all you can do is learn from it. You are a child of the Living God. He knows no beginning and no end. Once He has forgiven you for something it is forgotten. It no longer exists. So why are you beating yourself up over something for years and years that your Creator has forgotten long ago? Doesn’t really make any sense does it?
You are not supposed to answer to your friends and peers. Everyone wants to make those in their circle happy, and there’s nothing wrong with that. The issue is that you are not put here on this planet to be a people pleaser. You are not going to make everyone happy all of the time anyway so why waste the time? Why are you answering to other imperfect beings whose opinion of you will often change based on what you can do for them? Most people are for you as long as you are doing what they want you to do or as long as you are for them. However once you change and your cause no longer serves theirs they will usually fall by the wayside. They didn’t create you, they didn’t give you your gifts, they don’t know the beginning and ending of your life or what you are truly capable of. They will have no say on what happens to you in eternity. Their opinion of you or what they say about you will have no weight in the eyes of God. He has and will always love you regardless of what others think of you because it only matters what He thinks.
Sure they are your friends now but people talked about Jesus, so why would you think that people won’t talk about you too? He did nothing wrong and was hung on a tree, how do you think you are going to get through life without some sort of suffering?
Everything here is temporary. If you are going to answer to something then make sure it is the one that God calls you by. If you are going to answer to something be sure it is the Divine call and purpose on your life. When it’s all said and done God is not going to ask you how happy you made friends and family. He may ask how many people you helped along your journey in life but he really isn’t going to care about how popular you were. He is going to want to know if you answered His call.