There are points in our lives where we question why we are even here. Don’t act like it is only me. I like to call to them, “midnight hours”. I call them that, because it is always darkest before the dawn. If you haven’t experienced one yet, you haven’t lived long enough. Give it time, one will come. These are the times “when all hell breaks loose”. When it does happen, it seems like we keep digging ourselves deeper and deeper into a hole that we can’t seem to find our way out of. We question why we keep trying when the circumstances seem so insurmountable. We keep going through life, but it is just habit at this point. We get up, go to work, try to make the best of it, and come back home. Yet there is no life in us. Everything on the inside of us feels like it’s just dwindling away. We wake up every day wanting to quit, but there is something or someone that just won’t let us.
You can sit there and die if you want to or you can do whatever it takes to change your circumstances, even if that just means believing they can change. You were not created to live a life of just getting by. You were not created to live depressed, condemned, ashamed, guilty, and certainly not defeated. There are a lot of hurting people walking around on the planet. Whether they have been hurt by others or by their own choices is of no consequence, we are all fighting something. We have mastered putting on masks and showing other people what we want them to see. We smile on the outside even though there is turmoil brewing on the inside. There are plenty of days that I have wondered, what is the point? What can I do to have more of an impact? Do the things I do matter? What good are the words I write doing? I often don’t see the impact and I usually don’t hear about it until much later. Those moments when I feel low, I have to try to focus on what God’s purpose is for me. I may not have it all narrowed down, but I know He doesn’t want me to live defeated, but victorious. The question is always, “How do I get there”?
You shall live and not die. No matter what you have been through, what you are currently going through, how much the odds are stacked against you, God commands you to live. He died so that you could live. You may feel hopeless, or confused by the things tearing you apart in your life. Yet by faith, you shall live.
I have to remind myself of this a lot. No matter the circumstance, we are going through our trials and tribulations for a purpose, although the purpose is not clearly evident (sometimes, it feels like just torture for sport). God never puts anything on us that we can’t bear. He created us and knows our limits, but He also knows that in order to gain any strength, we have to be stretched. It’s just like working out in the gym: no pain, no gain. You can’t make any new gains, until you stretch beyond your previous limit or comfort zone. He knows how much we can take, and when we can take it. You were given these trials because you were built to go through them. It won’t always be comfortable and it may require you to come to the end of yourself, so you can be filled with more of Him, but you will be better for it. Don’t throw in the towel. No matter how difficult things seem, you have to walk whatever path you are on for a reason. The knowledge you gain on this journey will be needed on future battles. Your trials aren’t always about getting to the end of them or past them, sometimes it is just about going through them. The children of Israel couldn’t go around the wilderness, they had to go through it. David couldn’t get around exile and isolation, he had to go through it. Job couldn’t get around, or be exempt from being tested, he had to go through it. Faith can’t be perfected without trials. What would these people have become without their trials?
He has never forsaken you, and He won’t start today.
You shall live.